You see, I always invite God to speak to me at night during my sleep because the Bible says He does that and will do that. He never does. Instead, I get the very opposite of what I ask for. I'm not very happy today and I don't understand God at all.
Is He testing me?
This is proof to you that I am not a super Christian. Never claimed to be that. I'm human just like everyone else.
Still...I don't understand this. So many times, I have invited God to visit with me at night and He doesn't. Perhaps I make too much about this. I know it's "just" a dream but it's tormenting me today. I don't know what to do with this.
So here I am... the one that writes about having a relationship with God yet I'm having a strained relationship today. I won't lie, it messes with the faith and trust issues.
How do I manage this today? My feelings are scrambled, and my faith has taken a hit.
Do I give up on this nonsense? Absolutely not. Even in my mixed-up feelings right now I never give up and I don't think it to be nonsense. There has to be a reason for this. I woke up venting to God about this. I can't help feeling hurt right now.
So, what are the answers I have right now about this?
#1 - It is a test. The troubling dream brings up things I must guard against. Maybe it is a warning or just something to stretch me a bit.
#2 - Maybe God has nothing to do with it. The enemy can also mess with your head too. Could be some sort of spiritual warfare going on in my spirit at night.
#3 - Realize that God does what He wants to do when He wants to do it.
The important thing to do right now is just to not panic and just let it pass. Many times, the first hours after a disturbing dream are the hardest but then it subsides. That's what I need to do right now. Just because I don't understand God doesn't mean I can't trust Him.
So, what gives me the idea that God speaks in dreams?
Job 33:14-15
For God speaks again and again, though people do not recognize it. He speaks in dreams, in visions of the night, when deep sleep falls on people as they lie in their beds.
Joel 2:28
God says that He will pour out his spirit on all people, and that the old will dream dreams and the young will see visions.
Numbers 12:6
And He said, "Hear my words: If there is a prophet among you, I the Lord will make myself known to him in a vision; I speak with him in a dream.
Daniel 7:1
In the first year of Belshazzar king of Babylon, Daniel saw a dream and visions in his head as he lay in his bed. Then he wrote down the dream and told the sum of the matter.
So, there IS documentation that God does, indeed, do this. But, again, He's God. He chooses what He wants to do. I may not understand it, but I have to believe He would have a purpose in this.
